Jesus took the five loaves and two fish, looked up towards heaven, and blessed them. Then breaking the loaves into pieces, he kept giving the bread and fish to the disciples so they could distribute it to the people. Luke 9:16 (NLT)
Just before this, Jesus had told his disciples, “You feed them.” (emphasis mine) The disciples probably thought Jesus was crazy. They even answered Him, “But we have only five loaves of bread and two fish.” And then they said, “Or are you expecting us to go and buy enough food for this whole crowd?” (v. 13-14)
I’ve so been there! “Jesus, you’re crazy. There is no way I can do what you are asking me. I don’t have enough _____________.” Or more often, “I’m not enough.”
But, here, in the “not enough moments,” Jesus does something amazing. With the disciples, He took the five loaves and two fish, looked up towards heaven, and blessed them. Then breaking the loaves into pieces, he kept giving the bread and fish to the disciples so they could distribute it to the people.
You see, the disciples brought what they had to Jesus – which wasn’t much, certainly not enough to feed 5,000 men plus women and children! – and Jesus performed the miracle.
I have been hesitant to pursue the call to ministry in my life because I thought that I would not be enough. I thought I would run out of creativity. That I would reach this point, where I simply couldn’t think of anything else to say, or that I would run out of stories to tell. Ultimately, I was afraid I would fail.
I got trapped up in the enemy’s lie, and I was paralyzed by fear. I was afraid to move forward, so I busied myself with other “ministry work.” It hasn’t been “bad” ministry work; on the contrary, I know God has used it to change me, and bless those around me – all for His glory! But, it’s not what I was called to do.
Last fall, I realized why I haven’t moved forward in my calling. I identified the “lie” and shared it with my friends. I realized, too, the truth – that EVERY creative thought I had/have, they weren’t mine to begin with! They were His.
Everything always came from Him. Every creative thought, every inspired story – they were all His first. I only needed to come to Him. And He blessed it – He used it to feed the crowds.
Too often I find myself struggling with the idea, that I’m not enough. But instead of allowing that thought to paralyze me, I need to accept it as truth and allow it to spur me on to the One who IS enough!
The disciples were able to feed the five thousand that day because Jesus kept giving the bread and fish to the disciples to they could distribute it to the people. This means the disciples had to keep going back to Jesus. Jesus was – and is still – The Provider.
Quit listening to the enemy! Bring what you have to the true Miracle Worker. Watch Him take what you have – no matter how little you think it is – and see, through eyes of faith, all He can do with it. He wants so much to unleash ALL the gifts He has placed inside you, so that you will see His glory, and others around you will be blessed because of it. Because of Him.