“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God iswith you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9
“Nothing,” said Piglet, taking Pooh’s hand. “I just wanted to be sure of you.” ― A.A. Milne, Winnie-the-Pooh
“What do you need, Jacob?”
Can I be honest with you? Sometimes, I get annoyed when Jacob asks me this question.
So, my response is anything but gracious and giving. Huffy and puffy, I tromp down the hall and flip the switch, “There.”
And that little voice breaks me. It breaks my selfishness and my huffy-puffy attitude, and reminds me how “big” my son thinks I am, and how small I often feel.
I wonder if I am the only one who sometimes wonders if God is “done” with me. Not “done” like in a good way – like, “Finally she’s got it!”, but more of a “done” like I get with my own kids, like, “Really? We need to have this conversation again?! I just told you this! You’re killing Me, Smalls!”
For my God promises that He is with me, and for me. It pleases Him to know I long for Him – that I want nothing more than to know He is near! (Now, I’m not saying that He probably hasn’t rolled His eyes at me, or held His head in His hand while sighing heavily at me from time to time, but I know He’s not done with me.) He is with me wherever I go. Always present, always loving, and forever patient, even when I just need Him to turn the Light on for me…just to be sure.
Thank you for being an amazing Dad. Thank you for never losing your temper with me, and for always answering when I call. Thank you for being patient enough to reassure me of Your love – every time I need it (because sometimes I’m pretty needy). Please help me to believe, even when it feels like I can’t.
I love you.